142 Days

I have been very bad when it comes to keeping up with the Blog and Pictures. Maybe it's because I feel I write the same stuff every post, or maybe it's because I have a difficult time documenting how I feel. I need to get back on the Blogging Wagon because I want Kayla to be able to look back at this. It is special and this is what makes me the Mother I am today and the Mother I will be for Kayla. I don't take a second for granted. I may be a little too strict, but it comes from a good place, my love and appreciation I have for my Children. All three of them.

I am 36 weeks 2 days Pregnant. I have been on "restrictions" for 142 days. It has been quite a journey and I am very excited for the reward. I am also excited to have a life again without constant worry that my body will go into preterm labor. My restrictions were lifted on Thursday. I saw my Perinatologist and it was a great visit. I am dilated 1-2 and have quite a way to go. I will be 37 weeks on my next visit and that is when I had Austin. I am prepared to have her then, but I will not be induced until 39 weeks. I of course want to give her as much time as she needs, but I also want to be done with all of this. I am very uncomfortable, huge, retaining water, having contractions a lot and several other things that I can't think of or just don't want to post for the world to see. I am trying to get over my issues with being Pregnant and enjoy it. This is my last time I will ever be Pregnant, and I should be catching up on sleep.

It's hard to believe I will be taking care of 2 Children. I am so curious to see how Austin will react to a Baby Sister. I am not too sure he will understand right away, but he will catch on when he realizes baby isn't going away. He loves to come over and cuddle with me and give me kisses. It is very important to me that I keep that bond with him and make him feel very secure that she is not taking his place.

On a great note, I have been out and about quite a bit this week. I went to the Movie to see "Marley and Me" and I cried that uncontrollable ugly cry. It was quite embarrassing but nice to be out in the world again. I have gone to the store for Kayla stuff several times. I went out to Olive Garden, YUM! Jason drove me around a bit and I am loving all of it. Best of all I got to give Austin a bath for the first time in Months. That was quite a treat, and I think I will do it again tonight. Here is a pic from bath time. Sorry, I am very big right now. Oh well, I'm having a Baby!!